DAILY.
a week ago, i watched a tagalog movie. i am not really a fan of those tagalog films but this one caught my attention because of its famous lines.
and because, i watched it, i remembered my college ex. weve spent 3 long years together and until now, i wasnt still able to say sorry after leaving him without saying a word.
because of that movie, i saw myself as the asshole in my ex's life. ive been so selfish cos i didnt give him the xplanation that he deserves to hear.
so.. i decided to use blog to explain my part.
on our first two years of being together, remember the time when we planned on getting married? and what we did is to see what my dad's reaction's gonna be. unluckily, dad didnt like you and its like hell to be with someone my parents are totally against of. but we still tried and it lasted for a year. until i realized that fighting is no longer leading to anything cos the relationship turned worse. instead of understanding each other, we've been fighting almost everyday. we even forgot to greet each other. you know, what we have just turned into something strangers are engaged in.
i didnt give you the explanation that you need because i am not good with argumentations, especially if its about justifying my part. and until this time, i rarely talk and explain myself to anybody, cos until now, im still not good at it.
its been almost 6 years ago, and we still havent seen each other after that terrible break up. i didnt accept the second chance, cos you know me. once i was detatched to our "life" ill surely have hard time putting it back.
im sorry if i left you just like that. youve done so much for me. weve fought too much. anything more than enough is no longer good for anybody.
